What am I?

In our society where everyone needs a label, I don't seem to fit into either category: sahm or working mom.

A stay-at-home mom would say I am not one of them because I get a break and go to work.

On my sons field trip

A working mom would say no way - you go to work 2 days a week.

From work to the ball field

And I get it.  I do. 

I love going to target around 9:30 or 10am and grabbing my starbucks, seeing all the stay at home moms with their babies shopping.  And I think those are my tribe.

But then I also know what its like to work 2 days in a row and come home to find the hampers full, homework didn't get done and someone's class needs 16 juice bags tomorrow.

But from the middle, ladies I can tell you we are all in the trenches, doing our best and kicking but at this mom thing. So whatever you are - rock it!

Me and My Boys

I found a new mom product I love! Now that my boys are all showering (tears) I hate the idea of using loofahs or poufs because they harbor bacteria.  And scratchy washcloths are out but they all use pump soap.  Well I found the perfect solution!  Baby Bum makes a foaming body soap with a pump.  They can get themselves all soapy and clean with their hands.  I love this brand for sunscreen and now for their wash.  And they still to get to smell like babies for just a little longer!

Mom Rush

Let me super clear: Mom Rush is a disease and an epidemic and I fu*&ing HATE it!

It is a thief of joy.  I never heard someone else refer to it until my fave moms mentioned it, Cat & Nat and it hit me over the head that it is real.

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I remember being so overwhelmed with my first (what for I don't know) so it all started back then.  Mommin' aint easy and it sure as heck gets worse when you are doing it for tiny cranky humans.  So I was a nap Nazi - and I didn't let up when I had my third like everyone said I would.  But you start living life in these pockets of time.  I can remember rushing to get ready for the day during the morning nap.  And then the golden window of time between their morning and afternoon naps where you rush around and try and get everything done before they fall asleep in the car and screw everything up.  Even if it always meant eating lunch at 11:00am, waiting outside of restaurant for them to open the doors! I started rushing back then and can't seem to stop.  I have and NEED to slow down.  This rush is so tied with anxiety that all moms feel.

So, now that mine are in school I keep reminding myself to slow down.  I don't have to run around Target, I can eat my lunch hot and savor each bite and I can nap!!!  As long as I'm up by 3:30 for the bus :)

Kids in School

OK all my guys have been in school for almost 2 weeks now. 

And I still find myself trying to keep busy during the day and it seems like I can until 2:00.  Then I stare at the clock and think aaaaahhhh I still have an hour and 40 minutes till they get home.  The truth is yes, husband and I have been having fun going to lunch and shopping together and doing stuff around the house. 

Us at Carrabba's for my birthday lunch 

But we miss them!

I have had children at home for 10 years!  None of my kids have every went to Daycare.  I enjoyed the heck out of life with my first child and then when he went to preschool, I had a 4 month old.  And then when that child started kindergarten, I had a 1 year old and a newborn.  I loved spending the days with my children - is there anything better then napping with your children and snuggling all afternoon together?  And I loved always having a lunch date and someone to go to the store with.  So there is a definite hole in my heart!

And when someone suggests "work more" to me it just sounds stupid.  Work is not a substitute for spending time with your kids so CAN IT!  I don't have one of those jobs where you can just agree to take on 1 more day.  I work in an area of the hospital that most consider a great job so it is very hard to get into this unit. (I only did bc I am very part-time) I have been signing up for extra shifts to fill the days.  And you bet I volunteered for everything I could at their school! And I am also going to start scheduling those doctor appointments that I missed taking care of everyone else.

Anyway, enjoy your kiddos while they are home because it hurts when they leave :(  3:35 is my favorite time of the day!!! Come home babies

Packages

I'm sure you guys are like me with packages arriving all the time and a Husband with the side eye.  So I started showing mine what's actually in them.  But he actually thought they were all for me!  We do things diffeent then most couples, we have separate money.  (trust me we have never argued about money so we are doing something right)  He was so surprised to find out that the majority of the packages are for the kids!

And honestly the packages are so random.  Give the kids their last fiber gummie, have to order more from Amazon.  Get the kids dressed in jammies and realize they are floods, have to order pajamas from Carters.  We just had a cold snap here in B-lo, so ordered some cute zippie hoodies from Gap for the chilly mornings.  It is never ending I swear with three kids.  

Now I admit the Sephora packages are all MINE and Nordstrom (for the most part.) But we both feel so much better now knowing the truth.  Seriously, show them and maybe they will understand.

Birthday Post

I think I'm like every other girl - gift certificates to my favorite salons or medical spas always work for birthday presents!! I usually suggest this for my hubs because I like to make it easy on him :) I have started getting my hair done every 4 weeks instead of 5 - getting old sucks right?

I have been eyeing this necklace for a long time - it's from Accessory Concierge.  They have gorgeous necklaces.

I have been so good wearing a hat all Summer that I am kind of sick of the 2 fedora style ones I have and the 2 baseball ones I go between.  And then I found this cutie on sale at Kate!

Still obsessed with Nickel & Suede earrings and have now moved on to this "Gem" shape. I already own these in silver :)