Saturday, July 27, 2013

At Peace with the c-section

I had a birth plan with my first pregnancy.  I can look back and laugh now at that birth plan because literally, every single thing I didn't want, I got.  Right down to being straight cath'd because I couldn't pee.  After 24+ hours of labor and drugs I made it to 10cm.  Happy, Happy Joy!  I was ready to do something! after just waiting around all night, anything! even push.  And push I did for 3 hours.  And nothing.  Baby was stuck and his heart rate was being affected.  We found out later the chord was wrapped around his neck twice.  So off we went to the OR once Steve put his "bunny suit" on the correct way with a little help from the Dr. and we got our baby.  Failure to descend I think they called it.  That first C-section Sucked.  Lots of pain and percocets which just left me feeling detached.  Those drugs made me feel like a spectator which isn't exactly how it is supposed to be.  So I wasn't super thrilled when I found out I had to have another c-section.  I had placenta previa with my second pregnancy probably because of the first c-section.  And that's where the bitterness came in.  Lots of thoughts like why can't I push out a baby? Everyone else does and I'm not a size 2 for crying out loud!  Damn boy hips, where did they get me?  I want to go home the day after and not have a sore stomach for weeks and weeks.  And then to read some sh%# on the internet about how C-sections are easy, people are choosing them, it's the easy way out, blah blah blah.  Well, I had to build a bridge and just get over it.  It isn't the ideal but it was my reality.  I didn't want to admit I even had placenta previa because it sounded way too high risk.  But I got over it.  In the end healthy mom and healthy baby is all that matters!  Now the Drs. thought my placenta did move enough for it be relatively safe but they wouldn't budge on me attempting a VBAC.  So the second C-section was scheduled.  I was pleasantly surprised that the second was a breeze compared to the first.  I only took motrin and was home on post-op day #2.  Now going into my 3rd C-section I consider myself a professional. 

So why am I considering a birth plan (again.)??  Part of me thinks I could jinx the whole darn thing if I go in there with anything that resembles a plan.  BUT, there were some things, specifically certain Dr. orders that really helped.  And I am concerned maybe he changed his ways (in the whole year since we did this) or he might forgot one of those little orders that made my life easier in those couple blurry painful days after baby.  So we will not call it a birth plan.  Just a little note maybe he could reference when he sits down to write those post-op orders.   (hint hint)  This is the part some of you may just start thinking I am bananas but without further adieu!

Here's what I am thinking:  I desperately want an abdominal binder again.  It made me feel like my insides weren't going to spill out.  And I really need 2 sizes because that first one didn't fit after 2 weeks.  A little medication for the gas pain because that crap hurts!  Teds, not scd's so my legs can breathe.  I would like them to HT my IV with good po.  As long as I am not puking I don't see the need to pump me full of fluids when I can drink my yummy hospital cranberry cocktail.  I want to shower in the morning and have my foley taken out.  No sense getting out of bed all night to pee.  But I do want to get out of bed that first day and sit in a chair.  And most importantly, tordal q 6 hours for the pain for the first 24 hours.  That stuff is amazing!!  No narcotics for me. OK I know that sounds like I want a lot.  And I am not sure if the Dr. really wants to look at my little reminder note.  There are just so many things out of your control that I want some say in what happens to me. 

I am working on a little thank you project for the nurses and aides that take care of me.  I stole the idea off pinterest.  And there may be some baby blue chevron in there becase I am obsessed with chevron!  More to come on the project later :)

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