Some of you may know I am obsessed with the original 90210 but Donna Martin wasn't my favorite. That whole Donna Martin graduates episode I actually find quite annoying. But I did like watching Tori & Dean' reality show and have read her previous 3 books. I do find her refreshingly honest in her books and they are a quick read. So there I was reading her book "Spelling it Like it is" and sobbing. Some of you may not know but I had placenta previa with my 2nd pregnancy. I had my first check-up with Pierce around 9 weeks and they told me everything looked great. I, of course, breathed the huge sigh of relief after hearing his heartbeat for the first time, like all moms. About 2 weeks later I started spotting. I grabbed TWTEWYE book (the bible for first timers) and it stated spotting can be normal throughout a pregnancy and felt satisfied. I did notice the spotting seemed to get worse when I was carrying in the groceries or putting Brady in the truck but chalked that up to the physical activity. After working a 12 hour shift I noticed it was a lot of spotting so I called the Dr. I went in for an ultrasound around 14 weeks and was told again everything looked great. The Dr. said the blood was coming from my cervix because it was ulcerated which I guess can happen sometimes in pregnancy. I kept spotting and went back in at 18 weeks for another check-up and was told I had placenta previa. Now mind you I apparently had it at the 14 week ultrasound after another Dr. actually read the ultrasound but no one called or told me. I was mad at first that I was walking around for the past 4 weeks doing everything I wasn't supposed to in danger but then reality kicked in and it didn't matter. I made it the past 4 weeks and I needed to focus on the future and how uncertain it was. It doesn't matter how much you know about pp from nursing school. When they tell you, you have it, the shock makes you forget everything and I mean everything. Dr. B told me no lifting, pushing, pulling, standing too long, vacuuming, etc. He warned me that if I did these things, I would bleed. In my mind I thought ok I will wear a pad the next time I vacuum. Because that's how us moms are, we think we are invincible. And lets be honest, the dirt doesn't wind up in the garbage or groceries in the fridge without us. He could tell I wasn't getting it and then he told me "you will fill your shoes!" Huh? With blood? Oh ok now I get it. Guess he needed to get graphic to get me to understand and yes he totally did. So I stopped contemplating vacuuming and called Meatball and my mom crying. I left the office that day completely stunned and with a note for sedentary duty, not even light duty. The company I work for did accommodate me and let me push some paper, start IV's (which I got very good at it) and still collect my nurse salary. But I lived in fear for the next 21 weeks. I would especially worry at work. Mainly because I didn't want to make my coworkers angry that I wasn't doing what they were doing and getting paid but also that the bleed would happen there. I didn't really want to make scene with the males I worked with. I did go see a specialist to rule out placenta accrete which is by far even scarier and thankfully I didn't have that. Although I never suffered a major bleed I did continue to bleed (a little) the entire pregnancy which served as a reminder not to do too much. Tori talked a lot in the book about her experience and how she had 11 major bleeds, put on bedrest and was in the hospital for months. It made me cry, sob in fact, because I realized how thankful I am for getting through that and ending up with my little Pierce. And also because I went ahead without thinking and got pregnant again when the odds were that I would have pp again and be at risk for all the same stuff. God was looking out for me and made my placenta cooperate. And I am ridiculously thankful he did. So crying with Tori, yup it happened.
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