Back to Work

I am seriously dreading it.  It doesn't help that I'm headed back to a new job that I know nothing about.  And back to 12.5 hour shifts.  I got bumped to the OR.  Yay to never buying scrubs again.  Nay to freezing cold temps and guts.  I'm basically terrified.  I don't like the idea of being unavailable or stuck in a case for hours and hours while my boobs fill up.  (still breastfeeding)  So I am worried about getting mastitis because I still have a lot of milk.  I actually have a night job but will be training for 6 months on days.  If I hate it I will be bidding out on just about anything.  Who knows maybe the big house?  I'm also scared that papa won't be able to handle everybody back home.  I am going to try and make his job as easy as I can.  I will have Brady's lunch packed and ready, his clothes laid out, diapers all washed and ready, breast milk thawed.  But it's still a lot.  Men aren't good at multitasking.  And taking care of everybody is a juggling act.  Not to mention papa has been having trouble with his sugar lately.  I am going to try and enjoy the last 3 days of my leave and not stress.  But I have been praying this all works out!